Ah, 2015… I remember writing my first post of the year as if it were yesterday. And now look at me. Completely new life goals, new major, new hobby (I’ve gone to yoga classes for a month now!), new job, new DECADE– there’s so much newness! It’s honestly quite terrifying. I’ve faced a lot of inner turmoil particularly lately due to all of these quick changes. (I honestly think they happened too quickly for me to process them well, but I was in a sticky situation and needed to get out ASAP.) Anywho, 2015 has been quite the rollercoaster. It was the second year I actually stayed up to watch the ball drop– the first time I watched it at home. It was the year of my three-year anniversary (although four years is creeping closer and closer– less than two months to go!). It was the year I realized that I stress way too much about things I can’t control, although I’m still working on how to solve that problem. It was the year that I finally started gaining true confidence in myself, specifically intellectually (and physically). It was the year of quite a few adventures that I’ll never forget. It was the year of change, and that change is most definitely carrying over into 2016. I have quite a few changes that I still want to put into action in the new year. Not so much like last year, with hopes of working out and learning languages, but more surrounding relaxing more and becoming a more open-minded/flexible individual (as well as working on that pesky reading list I never stop talking about). I find myself setting much higher expectations on myself, which I’m happy about. I don’t get too upset if I don’t reach those goals, but I do expect high quality and sincere work from myself, which has inspired me to at least try to get into a Ph.D. program upon graduation. (There are pretty cool alternatives, so it’s not the end of the world if I don’t get in; I just wanna try.) I have strengthened many of my relationships, both with my friends and my boyfriend, which also makes me feel happier and more confident.2015 has been pretty awesome to me, and honestly, I’m sad to see it go. (Partly because 2016 is the year I turn 21, and I’m still coping with being 20, so 21 is gonna be rough.) But, 2016 will definitely be pretty awesome as well. It’s going to be filled with papers upon papers (…upon papers), but also (I hope) clearer lines of communication with the people that I love and a less uptight, more social me. (IT’S ALSO THE YEAR THAT I’LL HAVE MY FIRST PUBLICATION– YES, MY ARTICLE IS GETTING PUBLISHED IN MY COLLEGE’S LITERARY JOURNAL! *INFINITELY SQUEALS*) Also, hopefully, 2016 will be filled with much more blog posts.
Ugh, as I write more, I realize how much I’m going to miss this year. 2015 showed me how strong I truly am, and that, when push comes to shove, I choose my happiness over anything else. 2015 restored my faith in myself, and I hope 2016 allows me to flourish into the young adult I know I can be.
It’s been real, 2015. Peace out.
Photo source: http://www.tescott.ca/past-events/farewell-2015/